University Life Level 3 Finally !!

Hello my fellow readers (if i do have them lol) =p Well, here I am again missing in action and now back in action haha... Well, it's been about 3 months now and just decide need to update my blog again. A 2 months break was given to us since we finished our 2nd year, so here is some few updates. Let start knowing my life for the past months.

August. The month for muslims around the world to fast during the Ramadhan. This month I was also doing my exams for my final 2nd year in bachelor degree. A tough month for me, perhaps for some student too. 1st time ever I fast whilst my exams are going on at the same time. It was also the month after my nephew was born. Such a happening month for me at the same time.

September. Hari Raya Aidilfitri (Eid Mubarak) was in this month. A month where I enjoy very much with my family and friends. Went to visit a lot of friends at the same time getting to know few new friends. While on this month, we await for our results in order to get in to Level 3. I think this is also the 1st time I didn't buy any new clothes for the celebration festival. Snap a lot of pictures especially with friends which I updated in Facebook and Twitter.

October. Here where a new beginning begins. Email send to me and eligible to enter my final year. Was so happy but at the same time, we went a lot of trouble especially for financial. This is more on family matters so I will not be typing much about it. So met few new friends and loss some old friends who are suppose to be in with me in the 3rd year of bachelor degree. Such a tough month for me even to survive due to some major problems.

November. Now this current month is less than 10 days to end and will be going to December the last month of the year. Many events have been held and maybe more to come in the future. Thanks to all my housemates who have given support especially holding the big and 1st event for Brunei students studying in Malaysia.

So all of the month I miss to fill up my blog space have been briefly stated as I can remember. I am not sure if anything interesting I miss or not to state them here but if I do, I will just upload a new post.

I would like to make more friends if possible since my previous post have been commented especially 1 of it. A lot of readers say many good things and cool advices. I really appreciate what have been said and mention and I will bare in mind.

Maybe I will make a new post again soon since this final year in bachelor degree, we have a lot of free time (which we must utilize them for our final year project) but hey, all work no play makes Ben a nerd boy haha...

Lime rhyme for shove love

It's been a while I've been searching for gold,

Bold in this cold wonder what should I hold,

Listen well for what I was foretold,

Contemplate all before you get old.

I have been missing by your side,

Not knowing what I should abide,

Forgive me for all my dynamite,

It's my suicide from kryptonite.

I have learned to live half alive,

Striving, fighting just to survive,

Collapsed, tell me how you revive,

Wonder where your energy arrive.

My Nuisance Valentine

There are few questions that I need to know,

How you could ever hurt me so,

I need to know on what I have done wrong,

How long it has been going on,

Did I never paid enough attention?

Did I never give enough affection?

Did I never treat you right?

Did I always start the fight?

Not just your answers will keep me sane,

I promise you that I will never be the same,

I scour to find peace of mind that was once I owned,

I wish the clock reverse and bring back what once was mine,

To heal what has been hurt, to change the fates designed,

To save what has been lost, bring back what once was mine,

Is this a natural feeling or is it just me bleeding,

You are so beautiful inside and indeed so loving.

Evolution of University Life

It's now been a while ever since my 1st year in University started and now proceeding to the 2nd year. Many things that were taught and I've learnt too, other than education learning, I've also learnt social life a lot different from before. Things which I've learnt the most besides studying is a precious mystical gift in the world that a person can have is friendship. Hmm, in a sudden this friendship topic pop out of my brain cell...

Let's see for the moment what i can recall back... Friends I have in my country are different to compare them with the friends which i am having now... Back in my country, friends are more national boundaries and limited to some certain country barriers too but here in University, friends are widely international from some places which i barely can imagine to be friends with. Different cultures shows a different way of living a life but some show me how they appreciate life which i don't really do most of the times, not to be boastful but what can I say more if what people thinks that comes in mind on their first impression of my country. I got to know few new personalities of life and been going through many things which I myself can barely imagine of the effects that I've done. Frankly speaking will be, I've beginning to realize what a jerk i am getting into other people's business thinking that I can be an angel salvation and not knowing what a monster I've created out of a decent normal typical human being or is it just their own personality that started to reflect and evolving towards their own future.

A question that I need to know, where can I find such a friend that will be able to understand all the issues and having all the solutions that I need them the most. Maybe such friend does exist or they just haven't show up in my life. Sometimes comes to think back time, I am such a person but why am I still living to some split personality of not letting people to know what type of friend I am ?? I still could not figure that out not until few weeks ago... I do not have to let the world know who I was and what I've did (sounds really big against the world) it is how I will manage my present life and plan my future life will be just good enough for me now. My fear will be the history will haunt me in such a way that it is a weapon that is against my will.

Few people do read my blogs and some people commented them personally. I just feel relief when I post them here somehow I feel like hitting a target to let it know how deeply hurt I am but not for publishing my private life which may contradict with my statement earlier... I am tired of being neutral and being acting as one, being myself is more unreasonable but being who I want to be might work for sure. Basically, I've no idea why in a sudden I made this post at this moment at this time... I was thinking of putting off the heat but wonder where is the fire (a best metaphor to describe my moment now)

Happy 26th Independence Day

Brunei Darussalam... Happy 26th Independence Day to all Bruneians where ever you are... I am proud to be a Bruneian as we live in peace and you all could not agree more right hehe... Well, i will only make this short as you can visit this website www.nationalday.org.bn for more information

The Other Day

I thought I was on my way to a perfect life but unfortunately there are some obstacles that I need to face. Just like when I’m driving on the high-way then suddenly I’ve got to stop because of the red light. Well, let’s make it this way; The Day Went It Seems So Bright Can’t Even Last Till Noon… My question is, will it shine back later in the afternoon ??

It’s been a while that I’ve left my blog because that was those days when it shines bright. I’m not sure later in the afternoon, what will it be, sunny ?? rainy ?? or windy ??

I’ve met new people and become friends with them too, I won’t say that I’m lucky or vice-versa but, I’ll say that they are lucky if they can be with me haha… Why I say that ?? This is why, you love me and I love you too but, if you hate me, then I won’t say I hate you or I love you (",) I’ll just flow like the river but you keep on trying to burn on me. That’s totally impossible right ??

There are these bunches of people whom I know from my former school which nobody likes them. Trust me, nobody do except their selves and their own wierd friends. It is because they talk behind their friends to me and their friends do the same thing. I thought I may be the person they like and trust so what else did I do, just go with the flow and be the best person they ever know… I kind of like it, really, because I thought I know everything even the tiny bits. Hmm, what I never knew was that, they even talk behind me to other people and make me look really bad !! Why was I so stupid at that moment, why can’t I just think straight. Maybe the ego of me blooms or maybe…I don’t know what to say… I mean, if I knew they talk about their friends behind to me then why can’t I think for a second whether they do the same thing behind me to their friends…

There were times when I make decisions, just like a popular kid in school hehe… there were also when I’ve got things under control haha, that was totally cool of me =p So when I thought I can trust them then that is the time when I share some secrets on how to make a perfect muffins hahaha… Nah just kidding… To describe my glory in school is so much but to describe what I’ve strife is double the glory but opposite ways. Let’s make it short now, imagine your standing straight on top and then suddenly you are shot but you don’t feel anything at first not till the bullet turns into worms and destroys your body. That was the time I fall on the ground but only on my knees. I stand up straight and look at myself because I was lucky that the bullet pass through me. I do feel the pain people and it really hurts, it is better that way then it turns into worms in my body.

Now I’m leaving you to your own life, back to where you belong. I’m going further but I will remember the scar from the bullet because the scar won’t fade away… Unless I do some plastic-surgery haha… I’m trying to cheer up but I’m not sure if it is working or not. Fool me once, shame on me. Fool me twice, don’t even try to think about it haha…

Was I that fool ?? Nah… I will be better though because that was the story of me about ‘THE OTHER DAY’ I think the weather is shinning bright now and I have a plane to catch too… Bye you all !! Till my next blog hehe…