twenty - fifth

Arigatogozaimasu (nda g ada bsalam ne, jadi Jepun dah haha) to all my friends and colleagues yang telah menjayakan (mcm rancangan TV saja hehe) surprise birthday party for me yang buat me, myself and aku speechless and malu kali ku haha... Manakan, di canteen office lagi adoi2... Everything was very well plan by them (EO jua bnr) tapi yang hairannya aku inda perasan langsung ane wah hehe...

I was suppose to upload this image and post this on / during my birthday on June the 10th but tlalai saja iatah inda ada masa kan edit2 post ane... Via dis I would like to thanks all of you but I know not much know about my existing blog but at least my friends who read this knows that my colleagues do remmember my birthday and they do care... Eseh apakan, emosi pulg aku ane skadar birthday haha... Tapi thanks jua to my family, cuzens, friends yg msg2, bagi testi2 d tmpt lain, greetings via radio ada lagi org East sanggup bgun subuh2 haha n ohh yeah my peeps yg d KL, Spore, Aussie, Indon, Borneo jua d ucapakn ribuan bnyk2 skali THANK YOU !! Wadoh2, mcm sambutan basar2an pulg haha... 

Ok, aku ane jgn inda saja kan update blog ku ane sal ramai dah org tagur ku why ku nda update2 post baru... Classic wah jwpn ku, "Busy with my career" Well, banar kali ahh hehe... Ok2, bcoz + malas jua wah kn post2 sal kmu (sapa2 yg pernah tagur n terbaca n membaca ane nda jua bagi2 comment hehe...) baca2 saja n nda jua mau buat blog den nda g ada comment tuu (kmu nda dpt bagi comment sal kmu nda blog lah tuu, settings ku wah tuu sini ahh hehehe...) Mbah, ne ja lu ayt, krg pnjng2 boring kmu... (nda idea g wah hehe...) 

-: Double Trouble :-

Ok, ane ceta ku yg paling ku nda suka lah. Kira segmen stress ku lah hehe... It all starts 2 weeks ago, my colleague ane cuti......... Tym nya ada kaja, nda ku tau pa kajanya yg bz brabiz ane wah smpai mun kn cari ia pun punya pyh... Well, i understand pulg wat he do p sometimes i duno y he is stress komplain2 tia arah kmi sorang2...

Early morning on Monday: I was working trying to complete my work and replying emails then alum g panas wah kerusi ku ahh kena radio tia ku kena suruh k sana lah, sini lah... Mcm2 karenah org yg ada ne wah, manja2 wah sorang2... Dah ku abis ahh, ada

 tia org tua ane, ia ane mun kn bhajat manis wah mulutnya (jgn saja makan dpuji), ku andang paham dah ia ane... Sometimes or should i say, most of the time ia ane 'tray two face' hahaha... =p kira talam dua muka wah... Dpuji2nya ne yg nda2 rah ku ahh, well aku ane bukan pulg apa gnya i know if jenis org muji ane wah... Puji2 berisi tau ku dah, puji2 ikhlas buleh lah hehehe... Cya, ia suruh aku clearkn PC wah yg bhabuk2 ane k tmpt lain. Sruhnya ku masukkan k dlm store apa ne dulu then kuar tia supervisor ku... Dis bitch

 i really hate brabiz yo !! Shes a deep slutty bitch wah. D suruhnya ku angkay PC2 ato n panyap bisai2 k atas extension meja ku kaja ahh, ato ia... !! Nda baie dmana tah lagi toh... Yg hairannya ku ato nda mlwn wah, sal mula2 ku pikir kaja kwn ku yg ku ganti ane iatah ku pun nda jua sure so ku buat tah saja...

Tuesday story: Then ane second day lah ku ganti kwn ku, mcm2 ne complain sal PC IT apa... Ada yg ok p i tink kn semua kali sal yg nda ok ato ingat2 ku mcm nda jua hehehe... Alum ku start kaja kali ahh, buleh ?? Ane, kn tgh hari bru ku start kali ne sal apa nda ku ingat g coz its 2 weeks ago wah... Ingat2 ku kaja ku bnyk lum siap lah then supervisor ku g toh bagi email n copy semua yg ia mengarahkan ku mealih PC2 atas meja ku asap... Antah ko !! Sendiri ko mbuat, mcm tah ku ada msa free kan raise order, ckp pun nda kn tau... Raise ane lah p salah yo... LOL...

Hari Wednesday: Ane tah yg hari ku malu ne yo, tym ane ku always hope that kaja kwn ku ane nda teruk wah n kaja ku kira buleh ku siapkan lah... Bru ku masuk office then ada this post-it note stating yg im been order to move some PC bla... bla.

.. bla.. Tarus tah ku bjln k office org yg nyuruh ku ane, ku g nda pernah buat order2 ane, sal kaja ku lain n kaja kwn ku yg ku ganti ane g lain, so ku tepun tah org yg berkenaan minta tolong... Baik jua ada org mau advise ku cna2... Skali ku liat email ku, adoi2... Baik pulg ku kaja jadi central email saja nah hahaha... Cya tym tgh hari ahh, ku ato mcm2 wah email ku yg urgent cukup dgn ada g or mau capat2 mcm2 dlm email, smpai nda ku tkabir wah kaja2 ku ahh... I cant believe tym ane ku ternangish wah =( Nda smana2... Adoi2, ato ia tarus ku k jmbn laju2 hahaha, shyt !! I tink too much in my brain tym ane + panic kaja nda siap + server down sialan jua toh...

Thursday creeps: The more i tink bout my work, the more stre

ss and sakit pala ku mikir2 kn sal kelmarin ahh... Rasa ku kn minta cuti wah, bnr tah p ku gurantee jua nda dpt sal aku ganti org then aku tah g minta cuti, haha... nda cali toh boi... hehe... !! Kira andang ku target dah ne kaja ku nda tkabir g tapi baik jua lah sikit hehe sal at least ku minta tolong rah org lain. Yg ku hairan durg ne pikir ku ane ok2 saja kali wah or maybe... (well thinking negative tah ne haha)... Hairan ku jua masih, bagas2 kelmarin ada org2 offer help wah hehe =D

Then it's Friday: Ane tym ane ku nda mcm prasan something fishy bout kwn2 ku dgn ku kaja lah... Yg ku prasan and trasa that, they only need me 

when they are in need of me and when they are glad, im out of their name list. Adoi2, is it just my feelings or is it im stress or is it apa ahh ?? Iatah tym kn lunch, ku ane malas kn bwa kwn2 ku p dah ku pikir2kn, mcm jahat jua aku ato mun sampai ati hahaha... Mau inda mau, dgn hati yg tpaksa ku bawa saja tia durg ane... Iatah ku prasan starting ari ane yg mun tym kaja, pyh2 ku kn minta tolong p mun tym kn lunch adoi2, rajin wah sorang2 btanya aku haha... Was i a fool ?? Shame on me !!

Weekends: Got nothing much to say coz i got no mood and not much leisure tym to spend too... Ntah, maybe tlampau labih kaja ato ngaleh tia jua aku ato... I did text my frens p its been a while ku nda text2 durg and lama jua ku nda chill2 ane ntah 

durg pikir ku apa kah, nda tau lah hehe... I juz havent knoe how to divide my tym yet even tho kaja kn 6 bulan dah... I only liat DVD dumah, o9 chat2, surf2 apa2 sja yg siuk2 haha... Yo, jgn pikir2 lain2 ahh hehe...

Back to Monday: Ane g tia baie, pikir kwn ku yg ku ganti ne ok dah... Damam ia n ambil MC haha, chibai kian !! Well, maybe i can understand org balik2 blyr lah kirakan tapi dude, im not stupid lah !! Cya tym blyar, langsung nda ia tepun2 aku 

tnya2 kabar kah apa n cna kaja... Dude, aku mengganti ko kali ahh, at least tnya2 lah cna kaja ku apa ane mcm nda bdosa n nda butang pa2 wah... Though decision for me ptg ahh, bnyk kaja2 ku kira angan2 kn mbuat ptg ne p g tia teruk suk kami ada roadshow n bnyk PC kn ku pindah, usai, check... Gaji ku ane nda jua basar bnr, p kaja org ku ganti ane 3 kali ganda dari aku !! Shyt2 !!

Choosing Tuesday: Early morning dah ne kmi tpaksa k HQ wah... Ujan g pagi, apa nda sajuk badan hehe... Tym ane kwn ku yg baik lah hehe, cJam ane ia kn jumpa Doctor lah then ku ane planning kn dgni ia p tkut ku krg d HQ kena cari2 ku haha sal ku ganti kwn ku MC ahh...  Then i ask cJam ane bwa keta ku kira antar and ambil aku la

h, ia ane g takut2 kn bwa keta org... Pham pulg ku gnya desperate tym call for desperate measures sometimes hehehe... So tym2 tgh hari kmi ada FOC refreshments, lunch and snacks wah, ku lagaw tia suruh cJam dtg... Then jump to ptg, ku tpaksa k HQ sal my colleague yg ada dHQ ane nda mau nolong2 liat2kn PC2 ahh... Baie sialan jua toh, cuba tah paham2 sikit kn aku ane, dah tah ku ganti2 org minggu lapas then tmbah tah lagi 2 hari !! Fuck you all man hahaha... Tunggu ku ada power abis kmu haha, angan2... :-p

Wicked Wednesday: Ane yg ku hairan kwn ku yg 

ku ganti ato, pagi2 marung... Dude, mun kan marung2 ato jgn tah kaja, nda masa ku kn mliat mua org karas2 yo... Bynk g mua org dBndr lagi karas2 hahaha... Ane kmi k KB Town, ia minta dgni jua buat kajanya... ane ku cuba pahami lah sal ia lama cuti then tambah g MC 2 hari so ku undstnd emailnya btimbun lah... Ku nda kacau2 lah p ku cuba2 jua tolong2 p ku bagi2 supaya ia paham krg kaja ku nda tkabir lagi... Mana jua org lain kan paham ne, aku jua kena marah nda paidah2... Awu mun ku dah nda tahan g nahan rasa marah ku, abis meja tampik dua, eseh... kira juat dah toh haha...

Thursday: Str8 to the point that i feel safe workin

g in the morning p tym ptg, adoi2, mcm biasa lah, got to buat kaja kwn ku sal ia d KB alasanya simple, ia malas balik k Seria Town and ia minta tolong ku uruskan... Haha... sanag boi ko ckp, mun ku nda uruskan kira aku jua krg slah toh... I cant do much at this point sal ku nda tpikir pnjang wah, kaja timbun2 kali ahh... Malas tah ku kan buat pa2 p tolong2 ja...

Freaky Friday: Nda semana2 ku kn smbyg wah (dah susah baru ka ingat) adoi2... Ane kira ku kira energetic lah sikit sal mun kena bwa nyaya apa ku jwb balik dah hehe, sal kira ok lah ku dah ne... P msh jua kwn ku ane abil ksempatan nya... Nda ku mau krg baginya ku kaja yg sikit p process pnjng... Apa kah pikirnya aku ane... Im sure next week ku kn sindir ko ne, nda ku duli haha... buwoh, bnyk hajat ku kn jahat2 ne ahh... hmmm

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Weekends: Brunei 24th National Day !! Nda ku tau kn ceta pa sini sal nda ku jalan2 bnyk n nda ku kn inagaw2 apa2... I feel so damn exhasuted saja coz it was a hell of a 2 weeks !! Bru tah ku pernah rasa nyaman brabis tido ku kn sehari nda ku bnyk bgarak ahh... Mana g ku damam sehari hehe iatah mbuat ku lamah nda tdaya kan bnyk kaja. It's my receovery time hehe...

Well peeps, those were the horrible not to details fact about my two weeks in work-place. Tell u what, dont work with respect to non-repecters, work with attitude to bull-shitters hahaha !! Sorry guys, too much of crab words ?? Probably my blood is boiling at some unknown microwavable point hehe...  

You'll never know when you found a true friend not until the value is lost !! True friends will do anything with you for you, where true colours will reveal not by coincidence but by choice.

MB063 =D

It's 4am and I'm still wide awake argghhh, mcm nda kn kaja wah ku esuk rasanya hahaha... I've been surfing all night long and been trying to discover something out of many things that my new laptop can do hehehe... Ndangnya, laptop baru ne mesti di liat2 jua hehehe... It's about 2 weeks old now since i have it =D P jgn jua, im a new-user then masa mula2 blur brabiz hahaha... Nda pernah makai Mac OS  then tarus2 makai, rajin kali ahh mbaca manualnya haha...Baik jua cJam (Jam bangga lah ko ne ahh ku smpan nama mu lol) nolong ku untuk mgetahui lebih lanjut dan cepat esehwah hehehe... N now, ku bangga lah sikit2 at least ku tdpt jua hehe + makai mcm pro (haha... pro tia krg) !!

Macam nda jua paidah2 ku mblog ahh hahaha, kira before ku mandi subuh ne kn kaja baik tah bkunyanyang sikit2 hehe sal ku jrg active sini ahh n ku tau jua nda jua org kn mbaca sini ne haha... Jadi tah asal ada tmpt ku mbual2 hahaha...

Deliberate ??

I dream of things which are impossible for people to think. Well, what kind of things ?? Hmm... things like how you know about other people's mind, in fact like a mind reader. Not saying that I'm a freak or got super powers or something but it's the fact... Sometimes, it pops in my brain cell for information like the person's password beside me. Trust me, you don't want to get close to me for this reason cause I might be reading your dirty secrets which I wouldn't want to know too... Damn !! Why can't I read the other person's answers sitting around me ?? Maybe it was just my luck to know his or her password last time ?? Hmm... This has been haunting my life, ooooo (spooky sounds with the wind whirls) hehe... Okay, honestly I did got my friends password just by sitting next to them and suddenly *pops* it's kind of obscure for me to guess but I assume it was right. Oh why not give a try to asked them (rolling drum - hey I do need some effects here hehe, sorry people let's continue again - rolling drum) after I told them, it turns out I was right, yehaa !! Strike one !! Hehe... despite of my happiness it turns out they got shock; blur. I was happy to assume but they were contemplating. Why ?? Well, I guess it's when you know a security code for a nuclear bomb, don't you think people will be afraid of you to know their pin numbers or any of your dark secrets ??

Okay, here is another one. How would you feel or how would you respond when a person, enters your dream showing what they want you to understand ?? In the dream, your sitting beside them, while they are in pain and trying to tell you something, a message maybe... Then when you woke up, you don't feel right and you try to figure it out. You hope it is just a silly dream then it turns out whoever is in your dreams are dying... Not an easy one !! I myself, don't even like to think about it but maybe it was something that I don't want to understand or except. Few days later, you received a bad news saying that person is no longer here or else where. Your mind recalls the dream, so how would you feel and how would you respond then ?? Well, ask me this and I’m going to say, I should have pray for them and asked for forgiveness.

Hmm... the point of the two paragraph is that, this is not an ubiquitous 'thing', some people think I deliberately know it from others by force but hey, if others don't even know it, how do you think I get it ?? Well, the 'thing' does comes in handy sometimes hehe but I'm not sure where is it now ?? I used to have dreams to discover some information but it does not appear in my dreams now a days, wonder why... Perhaps it WAS my luck or maybe it IS my luck, yet...not known. To survive or to be perish ?? That's the question I've been asking myself... It's been a year now that I'm having a simple or should I say 'normal' life. It's great and I enjoy it too especially with my friends and family. There are some strangers turn to be my friend then left as my guess. (Well, I won't describe it as my enemy because I think it's a little harsh hehe...) Oh please, you'll make my day (",) You are afraid of the 'thing' I'm having then you turn your back on me. Left me in the deep water but again my question is, to survive or to be perish ?? Before that, I'll deliberately eliminate the grift within me and strife accross the ocean in the deep water.

I'll always remember the guardian angel who appears in my nightmare and saved me. Love and peace to you all my friends... Choose your true friends by heart not by hard !!

Mcm membual wah aku ne, eh bukan lagi mcm... ia udah ne hahaha... Ku ne kuat mbual nya kwn2 ku yg telah merapati aku dan yg ku rapati hehehe... Ckp pun nda menantu kdg2 p ada kalanya ku serious hantap yo !! P jrg lah, kdg2 ja, mun org kasar ckp then, padas jua ku membalas toh =p huhu... Ato ja bualan peramba masa ane... Bubye...

The New Begining

Hola Everybody !! This is my first post and I doubt my confidence to post stuffs which maybe crap haha...

Behold myself as a person who likes to surf the world via internet and chat via IM's. Thinking of the global-warming sometimes, wierd huh ?? Wow, I type down useless information which some of you peeps might find irrelevant haha...

Hey EJ, guess what ?? I just created a blog hahaha... Yeah blog man !! Thanks to my colleague, ejam AKA EJ who has convince me so far =p but it's on my own desire too man !! No wories hehe... Little info on EJ --> A guy whom I meet on the 1st day of my job and on his 1st day too. Good brother, talkative, friendly, laugh loud, strong imagination all this is when we know him after a while... Sorry dude, got to describe something bout you, at least hehehe...

Ok ok, let's get serious with this... I don't usually use to this type of things of where elaborating my particulars meticularly hehe, but hey, why not give a shot ??

I graduated from a private college (MIC) last 2006 and started my career in one of the leading company in the world last 2007. Why I type down it's leading is because it is... hehe, it's Shell tho =D Started making new friends with some strangers and getting unwanted attention is not new things for me in life.

Come to think of my life, I would desire to start a family soon but unfortunately I am own by no one. Come to desire to love, my demand of life practiculary stops me from going on. Why ?? When ?? Who ?? Those are the three common W's that are been asked from my friends and family.

Life is full of colours I might say. Isn't it ?? Family are my aura and friends are my colours. It reflects every point to the edge on how things are run in our routine.

For my first blog, I assume it is best for me to stop now because I have not yet much to type. Till the next time, we shall meet again hehe...

-BeN-